After many discussions with Peggy about fitness videos and things that she has done I finally succumbed and bought not just 1 but 2 Jillian Michaels videos... Man, from what I have been told she is going to kill me once, bring me back to life just to do it all over again.  This is what I get for being on a health kick. 

Not only will I be doing a lemon juice and water drink every day, which by the way has helped me lose some weight in the past week, I will be doing Jillian's Yoga Meltdown and Ripped in 30, and continue our family walks  (I can feel my body aching already).


This health kick has come as kind of a last resort effort to lose the extra pounds.  Since my life changing events this past May I have gained just about 30lbs.  It didn't help that the program that I was on (LA Weight Loss) had basically closed its doors over night keeping many men and women like myself mid program with nothing else to do.  I felt like a failure, fat blob, beached whale.. you know, all those words that people call the over weight... I felt like one of them.

Ryan has always said that I was beautiful no matter what.  Deep down a part of me wants to believe him.  But when I can look in the mirror and all I can see is a me version of the 600lb woman from TLC, I can't begin to believe what others perception of myself it.  

I am hoping to God that this time I will finally be able to lose the weight and get to my goal with out any hiccups.  I am sick of being big, I want with all my might to wear those pretty skinny clothes that I see in the stores.

I am not the type of person that can take supplements or do something drastic like the HCG diet or other weight loss plans like "Herbal Magic" "Weight Watchers" "Slimband" or any of the other fad diets.  After LA Weight Loss this has all appeared to me to be voodoo magic and that there is something that they aren't telling you that is actually making you lose the weight. 

It will be all natural healthy eating, portion sizes and exercise that will melt the pounds..

I hope it will work.  I will over come this!