After many discussions with Peggy about fitness videos and things that she has done I finally succumbed and bought not just 1 but 2 Jillian Michaels videos... Man, from what I have been told she is going to kill me once, bring me back to life just to do it all over again.  This is what I get for being on a health kick. 

Not only will I be doing a lemon juice and water drink every day, which by the way has helped me lose some weight in the past week, I will be doing Jillian's Yoga Meltdown and Ripped in 30, and continue our family walks  (I can feel my body aching already).


This health kick has come as kind of a last resort effort to lose the extra pounds.  Since my life changing events this past May I have gained just about 30lbs.  It didn't help that the program that I was on (LA Weight Loss) had basically closed its doors over night keeping many men and women like myself mid program with nothing else to do.  I felt like a failure, fat blob, beached whale.. you know, all those words that people call the over weight... I felt like one of them.

Ryan has always said that I was beautiful no matter what.  Deep down a part of me wants to believe him.  But when I can look in the mirror and all I can see is a me version of the 600lb woman from TLC, I can't begin to believe what others perception of myself it.  

I am hoping to God that this time I will finally be able to lose the weight and get to my goal with out any hiccups.  I am sick of being big, I want with all my might to wear those pretty skinny clothes that I see in the stores.

I am not the type of person that can take supplements or do something drastic like the HCG diet or other weight loss plans like "Herbal Magic" "Weight Watchers" "Slimband" or any of the other fad diets.  After LA Weight Loss this has all appeared to me to be voodoo magic and that there is something that they aren't telling you that is actually making you lose the weight. 

It will be all natural healthy eating, portion sizes and exercise that will melt the pounds..

I hope it will work.  I will over come this!

Any man can be a Father.  It takes some one special to be a Dad. 

- Author Unknown-

My Dad is my inspiration.  He is my mentor.  My Dad has been there and done that and even if I have screwed up big time he helps me through it.  My Dad has seen me at my best and at my worst.  

We have been through so many bumps in the road and have shared happy and sad moments.  You are the rock of the family and are my guiding light.

 I wouldn't change him for anything!  I love you Daddy!

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You don't need to biologically linked to a person to be a parent.  A special shout out to Ryan as you have stepped into a role as a Daddy to Ainsley in the last nine months.  You two are inseparable and she loves you very much.  

From the day that she met you and automatically started calling you Papa Ryan to the day when just out of the blue she started to call you Daddy; I couldn't imagine a better role model for my precious little girl.

Thank you very much for being there for her, Ryan! You mean a lot to both of us.

 

 

Like -  Having a girls night with my best gal pal and a good friend from work.  Makes seeing the Lethbridge Hurricanes win that much better.  

Like - Coming home from said hockey game and being able to cuddle with the love of my life.

Happy end to Valentines week and onwards to Family week.

Going to Monarch tomorrow afternoon to see my folks and have supper.  Boy do I miss them.  Next weekend we have the whole gang from Medicine Hat coming to visit.  I couldn't be more excited to spend time with everyone!

On this the day of LOVE... Here are some wonderful quotes:

Love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction.
Antoine de Saint-Exupery 

Then we sat at the edge of the earth, with our feet dangling over the side, and marveled that we had found each other.
Erick Dillard  

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.
Roy Croft 

Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable.
Bruce Lee 


  

Happy Valentines Day!!! Even though I am still sick and having some back issues it is a decent day.  I have never felt soo loved than I do this Valentines Day.  I am very blessed.  Will be making a fantastic Valentines Day supper tonight with my loves.  Spaghetti and meat sauce and heart garlic toast (if it works out that is).  

For those who are celebrating the Valentines Boycott, I hope you have a great day and enjoy some chocolate.